Life, Love and Loss...the other side of it
It has been so long since I've posted. Life got away from me somehow. In the past few years I have had some amazing things happen to me and some life altering changes that have left me with a gaping hole in my heart. I recently had a friend suggest I write again as it has always helped me before.
I lost my husband, my best friend, my lover, my everything. With him, I finally felt like I had found that missing piece of my life and of myself. I don't think he realized how much he impacted everyone around him and how loved he was and not just by me.
I have been told there are several stages to grief and that I will go through them a number of times. That is a truth that I struggle with every day. Just when I think I am stepping out of the fog of grief something will happen that I can't wait to tell him...only he's not here. Bryan was my go to person. He always knew what to say to make me laugh, to brighten my day or threaten to confront anyone that upset me along the way. He was fiercely loyal and was always quick to come to my defense and show me a support I had never known. We would talk about a billion times a day and mostly just to say hi and I love you. I don't know that I will ever get used to the quiet and I so long to hear his voice, his laugh, even his snoring.
For anyone that has gone through or going through grief, you will find your smile again. There will come a time when the smallest memory will make you thankful that you had the love and the life for however long or brief it may have been. They will always be with you and the love and the memories that you carry with you is the legacy they leave behind.
I lost my husband, my best friend, my lover, my everything. With him, I finally felt like I had found that missing piece of my life and of myself. I don't think he realized how much he impacted everyone around him and how loved he was and not just by me.
I have been told there are several stages to grief and that I will go through them a number of times. That is a truth that I struggle with every day. Just when I think I am stepping out of the fog of grief something will happen that I can't wait to tell him...only he's not here. Bryan was my go to person. He always knew what to say to make me laugh, to brighten my day or threaten to confront anyone that upset me along the way. He was fiercely loyal and was always quick to come to my defense and show me a support I had never known. We would talk about a billion times a day and mostly just to say hi and I love you. I don't know that I will ever get used to the quiet and I so long to hear his voice, his laugh, even his snoring.
For anyone that has gone through or going through grief, you will find your smile again. There will come a time when the smallest memory will make you thankful that you had the love and the life for however long or brief it may have been. They will always be with you and the love and the memories that you carry with you is the legacy they leave behind.
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